1. |
aftercare
01:11
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we took a shower
in early hours
kissed for a bit
after being your bitch
neither of us came
but that’s okay
wanted to say thanks
cause i felt safe
with you
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2. |
in the blind
03:10
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you had a friend and set me up in the blind
they made some weird jokes
and the vibe wasn’t right
so i faked an urgent call from my mom
and then said goodnight
i turned left out the backdoor and into the rain
saw you had texted before
and i almost got hit by the train
well i wasn’t okay
i called you up and i got the machine
later you called me back,
said you were waking up from a dream
boy, you could’ve fooled me
you and me both know
the way things have been
since the initial incision
your heart is all blocked up again
and there’s no way in
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3. |
judgement day
04:53
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you missed your chance
so you’re making other plans
and she’s reaching for
the lighter on the floor
just another day
to push the past away
but there’s something there
even if you’re unaware
they’re cooking the books
and they bury the ashes
where nobody looks
might be too late to save face
cause i hear them calling out
for judgement day
you write it down
and then you throw it out
it’s such a futile game
end result always the same
and she does what
nobody dares to
don’t go up the stairs
whatever you do
they’re cooking the books
and they bury the ashes
where nobody looks
might be too late to save face
cause i hear them calling out
for judgement day
they’re cooking the books
and they bury the ashes
where nobody looks
might be too late to save face
cause i hear them calling out
for judgement day
cause i hear them calling out
for judgement day
for judgement day
for judgement day
what is this
what is this
what is this
what
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4. |
auto-return
03:20
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maybe something that you said
like "i won’t get out ahead"
i was looking for a friend of a friend
and then dividing up the skull
finding patterns in the holes
i could never fit into the role
the same excuse
could i throw it back to you
there was really nothing i could do
dissolve into a looser way to move
to something that you know
to frame it with some truth
and talking out of phase
is something you can do
to someone that you know
to frame it with some truth
dissolve into a looser way to move
to something that you know
to frame it with some truth
and talking out of phase
is something you can do
to someone that you know
to frame it with some truth
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5. |
absolute free fall
05:05
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we pass another junction
on our way to the function house
my dad didn’t want to give none
oh but yours had twice the income
and he’s still hanging around
you keep on telling me
to put some faith into the things
that we cannot see
but it goes down like it did before
signal out, then we hit the floor
and there’s still seven more
when we stop to take a breath
i start to forget about the rest
of the people just like you and me now
face down in the concrete as they bleed out
no time to commiserate
we’re making one last getaway
under the cover of night
but to try to wipe the slate clean
would it just be wishful thinking
or could you call it a crime
and when the smoke finally clears
will you take it all in stride
we circle around the block
where you once lived
past the swing set
where you and me used to get high
and you remember the taste
that sweetly decayed
into another white lie
and you point out the place
where you cut the chain
and swore to my face
that you’d try to survive
so what are we supposed to do
now that i’m in free fall with you
so what are we supposed to do
now that i’m in free fall with you
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6. |
every ten years
05:50
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have no regrets
and make no apologies
you don’t owe nobody a damn thing
and don’t you think twice
about a wider position
cause you gotta fill those basic needs
hey
it’s not enough
your loose ends have come undone
and i am through with patching holes
while all of your thread gets unspun
hey
it’s not enough
you’re auto-piloting simple stuff
and you’re getting stuck
and i know it’s tough
but you have to try
baby, what the fuck
they say every 10 years or so
our cells replace themselves
well 10 years ago
i was someone else
everyone i’ve known
drifting in the sea
sucked into a hole
never to be seen
whispers from below
but there’s no second ring
no one told me so
why’s it happening?
everyone i’ve known
drifting in the sea
sucked into a hole
never to be seen
whispers from below
but there’s no second ring
no one told me so
why’s it happening?
everyone i’ve known
drifting in the sea
sucked into a hole
never to be seen
whispers from below
but there’s no second ring
no one told me so
why’s it happening?
so maybe i could try
to lead a different life
could i fall in line?
or would you be surprised?
would you be surprised?
would you be surprised?
would you be surprised?
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7. |
easier that way
02:37
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woke in the early morning
with a stomach ache
thinking bout the poetry you wrote for me;
i kept it safe
butterflies were wild
but now i keep them tame
and you could push me up to my limit
but i will not break
and i know i can’t brute-force change
maybe you’ll always just look at me the same
we both got friends,
our art, and places to stay
maybe it’s easier that way
i climbed the highest mountain
but i missed the peak
must’ve veered so far off-course,
i hit the bathroom sink
strobe lights flicker out
as i kiss the toilet bowl
maybe i can’t hold my liquor down
but i can hold my own
and i know i can’t brute-force change
maybe you’ll always just look at me the same
we both got friends,
our art, and places to stay
maybe it’s easier that way
yeah, maybe it’s easier that way
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8. |
brass tax
03:50
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i’ll choose my next words carefully
to keep this focused on you
i know you’ve been trying
to bring it into view
and i gotta say, i’ve been squinting too
after all that we denied
rushed back through
after all that was implied
came looking for you
sinking lower to the tide
in crepuscule hues
but i am ready for the ride
yeah yeah yeah
we fuck up
and then we repent
we clean up
so we can make messes again
i’m a bird without a tree
on a highway stretch
you’re passing me
and i reach as far back as i can
in the throes of my mind
if i figure out this high wire act
i know i’ll be fine
i’ll be alright
yeah i’ll be fine
i’ll be alright
you’re a moss covered shrine
with a thousand blinking eyes
i’m a bird without a tree
when you left, you planted a seed
after all that we denied
rushed back through
after all that was implied
came looking for you
sinking lower to the tide
in crepuscule hues
but i am ready for the ride
yeah yeah yeah
and i reach as far back as i can
in the throes of my mind
if i figure out this high wire act
i know i’ll be fine
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9. |
birthday card
03:50
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arbitrary arbitration wasn’t fun
cause you zoomed in on the image
til all you could see was the sun
and i tried to sink your destroyer
but i couldn’t get past the shore
these days we’re all so full of fire
what was it like before?
i got your birthday gift yesterday
the card had no words
it made me think of all the times
that i left you buried in the dirt
so come on baby
say goodnight to the blinking lights
it’s time to quiet down
don’t you know everything will remain
when you’re no longer around
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10. |
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when push came to shove,
i started over again
trying to go back
the same way i came in
it wasn’t enough for you
but i have made my peace
in exchange for something true
and when i find myself on walnut street
in a perpetual state of disbelief
i will make another offering
under the tree that you admired
for its leaves and all the things
you couldn’t bring yourself to be
i insist to merge the facts and what you did
but i will resist the urge to cave in
i assessed the risk
for every habit you couldn’t kick
but you better believe
that i still got some love to give
and when i find myself on walnut street
in a perpetual state of disbelief
i will make another offering
under the tree that you admired
for its leaves and all the things
you couldn’t bring yourself to be
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bark dog Boston, Massachusetts
bark dog is the recording project of nonbinary experimental musician/artist blair jasper (they/them)
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